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The end of the line

The urge to lash out at our babies is more common than we think. Thousands of mothers battle in silence with thoughts of harming their little ones - so what are the warning signs and how can we help?
By: Angela Barry

Someone once told me a story about a young mother driven to near insanity when her newborn refused to sleep or stop crying.

Exhausted, single and alone, she raced to the roof of her apartment building, baby in arms, and threatened to jump. Mercifully, she was pulled from the edge by fellow residents who responded to her screams.

Is it really possible that any well-balanced person could be pushed to this point? Tiredness and trauma are often hallmarks of the first few years of parenting, but is it 'normal' to want to hurt our babies?

The uncomfortable truth, say experts, is that many of us face this temptation and feel heavy with guilt because of it. The tragic part is that some parents buckle - and babies get hurt.

"Many things can trigger the anger that often precedes thoughts of abusing or actual abuse," says child therapist Orli Zaacks of the Anxiety and Trauma Clinic.

"It can happen when an innocent baby has colic and has been crying for hours. It can happen when a baby refuses to stay in his bed at night. Sometimes it happens when a baby throws a tantrum, won't stop screaming and the noise fills the parent's head until the parent feels overwhelmed."

Breaking point

"There are many different factors that may contribute to the likelihood of physical harm," says Zaacks. These include:
- Isolation and lack of support. When there is no one, such as extended family, friends, a partner or community support to help with the demands of parenting
- Stress. Financial pressures, job worries, medical problems or taking care of a family member with a disability can increase stress and overwhelm parents
- Unrealistic expectations. A lack of understanding of a child's developmental stages and behaviour
- Lack of parenting skills. Not knowing how to help children learn, grow and behave in a positive way
- Drug and alcohol problems. Addiction or substance abuse may limit parents' abilities to meet their baby's needs
- Low self-esteem and self-confidence. Sometimes insecure parents doubt their ability to meet a baby's needs and do not seek help and support
- Poor childhood experiences. Intergenerational patterns of abuse

"Physically harming a baby - or the risk of it - can occur when stress, tiredness, lack of skills, information and support combine to make the pressure of caring for babies overwhelming," explains Zaacks.

"There is no good reason to abuse or hurt a baby. Babies need unconditional love, compassion and understanding. They need to be listened to and allowed to cry and express their emotions.

"But knowing all this and believing it with all of one's heart, sometimes does not prevent a parent from hurting his or her baby."

The sleep factor

Jacqui Flint, mom of two, is the owner of Baby Love, a local organisation offering routine and sleep guidance for babies and their parents. Her eldest son Cameron (5) is the reason she became involved in the organisation several years ago.

Baby Love believes that sleep deprivation is a major cause of tension between parent and child - and a cementing factor leading to thoughts of harming a baby.

"'Baby bashing' or the urge to 'baby bash', as the organisation terms it, is more common than we realise or want to believe," says Flint.

"My son, then 7 months, wasn't sleeping at night and the constant, ongoing sleep deprivation led me to the brink of wanting to physically harm him. I actually wanted to bash his head against the wall just for peace and quiet and to be able to sleep.

"Fortunately for us, I didn't act on the urge, but instead implemented a routine and sleep-guidance programme which saw him sleeping well night and day within one week. We had normality back in our lives! We had our lives back!"

Flint is constantly reminded of how many moms feel the way she did. During her workshops and private sessions, she explains to parents that it's okay to feel love for a baby but still resent him, want to shake him, feel a sense of loss of control or to believe that having a child was the biggest mistake of their lives.

Red flags

Be aware of the signs that you - or another parent - are reaching your limits and may feel compelled to do physical harm to your child.

"Problem areas include parental alcohol or substance abuse, previous abuse of a baby or the baby's siblings, a history of mental or emotional problems in the parents, childhood abuse of the parent or absence of visible parental love or concern," says Zaacks.

"From my personal experience, I had feelings of intense resentment and dislike towards my baby, and at times handled him unnecessarily roughly," says Flint.

Other warning signs include:
- Not enjoying being a mom
- Constant references to how life used to be before the baby - the insinuation being the longing to return to those days
- Feelings of resentment and finding the responsibility of having a baby both daunting and overwhelming
- Saying that having a baby was a terrible mistake
- Showing no interest in the baby

"While these signs do not necessarily mean that a mom is thinking of physically harming her baby, they do indicate that things are not as they should be and that help is necessary," explains Flint.

An unfortunate fact is that parents often refuse to admit they're not coping. Maternal guilt and societal pressure to be 'the perfect mother' take their toll on a new parent, who does not realise that sleep deprivation, depression or negative external circumstances are good enough reasons to seek professional help - or least some sort of regular support.

What to do when you're in trouble

"There are several helpful ways to avoid the 'danger zone'," says Flint. First, always remove yourself from the situation by placing your baby in his cot or handing him over to a reliable, trusted caregiver. "Make yourself a refreshment and take a deep breath," she says. "Only go back to your baby's bedroom - or fetch him from a caregiver - once you feel in control again. Even if this means leaving your baby to scream, know that your baby is safer without you at this point."

Walking in the garden, phoning a friend, listening to calming music and acknowledging that you are not coping and therefore need help are good steps to take. Taking calming herbal drops - and some for baby too (diluted or on the soles of his feet) is very useful.

Zaacks advises that every situation is different, with some situations being more dangerous than others and needing immediate intervention. Ideas that have worked for most parents in the long run, however, include:
- Asking for help in advance from someone you trust. Let that person hold you accountable. When you feel like hurting your baby, call that person.
- Watch for signs that you're reaching your limit.
- Ask yourself: 'Am I really angry at my baby or is the anger stemming from another unhappy situation in my life?' Toxic relationships could be bringing you down.
- Take care of yourself. Sleep enough, eat healthily and drink lots of water.

Raising a young child is no picnic. The temptation to lose control is very real - and you're not a failure if you feel this way. Being brave enough to admit the problem is a far safer option than stoic silence and gnawing guilt.

Emergency measures

Alone and about to lose it? The Anxiety and Trauma Clinic offers top tips to help you cope:
- Splash cold water on your face.
- Sing a song.
- Quote a passage of scripture or a favourite verse to yourself (write them out and place them around the house as reminders).
- Take time out (leave your baby with someone else).
- Hug or yell into a pillow.
- Count to 10.
While these intervention measures may seem obvious, they work on both an emotional and physiological level and will help to calm you down.

Sources and help

The Anxiety and Trauma Clinic provides specialised treatment for anxiety disorders and trauma-related conditions in both children and adults, without the use of drugs or medication. For an assessment, email the clinic at or visit, or call 011 883 4552.

Baby Love helps parents and babies with sleep problems and routines. If you suspect that lack of sleep is causing problems for you, your partner and/or your baby, please visit or contact Jacqui Flint on 082 851 2141.

Battered Baby Syndrome is the official term for non-accidental injuries sustained by a baby as a result of physical abuse inflicted by an adult caregiver. The term was coined by German-born American paediatrician Charles Henry Kempe, and refers to a pattern of physical and psychological injuries inflicted on a baby by intentional neglect or repeated, excessive beating by a parent or carer.

Shaken Baby Syndrome refers to a combination of injuries sustained when a baby or child is violently shaken. According to health reports, thousands of cases are filed each year and 60% of victims are boys.

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